I heard about this elixir from a LOTUSWEI newsletter and after connecting with Taylor. It was such a powerful elixir and really helped me to heal shame I hold onto, just like the description says "dissolves the fear that what's inside is scary/ ugly." It felt so serendipitous that I took the elixir when I did and I am able to be more vulnerable around people I trust and I am received. I am greatly enjoying this flower essence journey and I love setting intentions before I start taking an elixir and writing down wild and magical things that I notice that happen while I am taking them.
I had just finished moving the email requesting me to write a review into my Trash box, and started reading the information about Clock Vine sent by Lotus Wei, when...I suddenly realized that today I experienced a deep breakthrough supported by Clock Vine. So, I dug out the review link, and here I am! This evening a bantering conversation with my mate unintentionally triggered a deep wound. When I turned inward to breathe and experience what was present, I was transported back to a specific childhood experience. In the felt sense of this memory I was aware, for the first time, of how I had interpreted this experience to indicate that there was something wrong with me at the core and especially wrong with my expression. Even though I know what happened was not meant that way, I realized that I had internalized shame and distrust of my own expression. I saw how this has led to doubt and suppression of my evolving process of growth throughout my life. I walked outside to be on the earth, look into the starry sky, and breathe. Tears streamed down my cheeks as I felt the energy in my upper chest, shoulders and neck shifting. I felt (and feel) tremendous gratitude, for the awareness that now I DO know how to allow my natural process--at least, I am learning. I DO trust myself to be in that process, and I am strong enough in my own center to be with my own process of growth and evolution, even when it doesn't feel or look balanced, even when those around me aren't comfortable with it. This brings a deep sense of self-love and compassion. I can now see clearly how funny it is to expect myself to arrive at polished expression that will be pleasing to the world without a process that might be messy at times--just like baking a cake! When I read about Clock Vine, I realized that this subtle awareness freeing my expression was supported by this beautiful flower. Thank you!
So grateful to this little flower essence. I was attracted to this shade of red, and the way the flower leans open in the photo - and on the vine - and that it helps with feeling more open, helps you leave behind "worry about not having enough time" and "dissolves the fear that what's inside is scary/ugly...speak our mind." I used this elixir with the Boom mist collection (Inner Peace, Truthteller, and Full Bloom especially). The changes happened subtly and pretty quickly. I felt way more expressive within just a couple days, and then, I felt much more willing to sit with the things I had been afraid of before. I became conscious of the ways in which I hide from feeling and being vulnerable with others and myself - eating and hurrying around - and become more forgiving, gentle, and open with myself. I found myself being vulnerable without knowing how it would land - and feeling more "alive," the more I did this. Within a month I was much more comfortable with feeling and truths I hadn't been wanting to feel before - and that's created so much change. Thank you so much for this beautiful flower elixir! Will be connecting with it again someday.